A young lady once told me that in order to succeed in life, I have to put my nose to the grindstone and just keep pushing forward. I started to think about it. And suddenly I realized something. Wouldn't that liken me to a freaking race horse with blinkers attached to the sides of my head? If I were to do that and ignore everyone else as they pave their way through this rotten chance we've gotten on this unforgivable planet, I would eventually be happier, but lonelier. HOWEVER, if I were to remove the blinkers and trot over the track to everyone's lane while they were trying to do what I had previously been trying to do (nose to grindstone and etc), wouldn't I be interfering? OR maybe what I am suggesting to myself is that I should saunter up to the stands where the audience is sitting and start chatting up the front row.
All I know is this. Don't think that you know the answers. No one should think that they know the answer. Life is this never ending journey. Why I say never ending? When it does end, who the heck are we to know that it's ended? Maybe there's a journey beyond...maybe there isn't..maybe you disintegrate into the earth, maybe you become ashes and add to the disastrous carbon cycles which eventually will affect the planet. What I am saying is, we should spend time looking for an answer when a question is posed, not immediately come up with an assumption which does not include factors that clearly would alter the findings. Instead, people prefer to stamp their presence with a seemingly full and sensible statement which in essence is absolute HOLLOW.
I am all for meaningless gestures having done them all my life. I don't like doing them. But, in this world, you might find it fake. But the truth is, it helps in so many ways. It softens the blow, it pads an awkward moment. It saves a person from embarrassment. It's such a versatile tool this "meaningless gesture" thinggy. Being nice to a person although your opinion of them has been tainted repeatedly. Assuming that people around you are all fine just because they haven't said anything to you. Ignoring obvious signs of uncomfortableness in a friend because a few times before, noticing those signs have led to a negative answer and a momentary fall of face... You know what? I'd rather be embarrassed for that 5 minutes then to ignore those signs. If I do recognize those signs accurately, It would probably lead to a deeper conversation which in turn would solve many problems. As we all know, when something weighs you down, your shoulders hurt....wait.....no...when something weighs you down figuratively, all you need to do is to talk about it. It might not solve the issue..it might not remove it from your memory...it might not be a perfect topic of conversation such as shoes, places to eat, what to wear and the philosophy of the world as we, the infants (a softer blow for the stupidest people currently on earth) of the world often indulge in. So what if it means lowering the mood for awhile.
A friend would say something. A few people have tried to tell me to stop it. Just because someone has done something wrong or is doing something wrong, I should stay out of it.. Why should you do something about it? It's not your problem...I ask you again...When my friend is doing something wrong? I should let him/her? Biggest bunch of balderash I've ever heard. I might have agreed previously because of the way the question was poised, but after much thought, that's just who I am. I am sorry if I come off as nosy, condescending and all in all an arrogant son of a bitch. But if I feel that my saying something will in some way make you a better person, I will say something. It's already too late for me, I am egoistic bull-figured, elephant stomached, panda faced middle aged college student that is more likely to die by talking himself to death. It's too bad that no one has said anything to me, otherwise I might not be going through this emotional faulty roller coaster that I have fallen off of right before it hit the downhill slope and I am hanging on to the rails with one hand.
I am me..I have lost people before..It sucks but it doesn't leave a scar..leave if you don't like it.
It is crunch time and way overdue it is too.... I have to decide and it looks like I just did.